When I first read the devotional Wait and See by Wendy Pope a few months ago, I just remember the tears flowing down my face. I found myself with a mirroring experience as those in the text. I am waiting on God’s plan for my life to come to fruition, and sometimes I find myself struggling with my hope.
Over the past few months I’ve been spending a lot of time with God. During this time He has revealed some of His plans for my life, and the things He needs me to do to get His plan into motion. Sometimes I fall short, but for the most part I’ve been following His every step.
Meanwhile, I’m very uncomfortable. One of His 1st assignments after I began to fully surrender my life to Him was to take a job with a $7 an hour decrease from what I was previously earning. With the summers off it comes out to be around $10,000- $15,000 less than what I was making at my previous employer. Now granted I like my job, and I understand why I am there, but our bank account was struggling for a while.
Now I must share that as much as my husband and I felt like our bank account was struggling to breathe, we NEVER went with out. God always provided.
On one hand I try my best to live in a state of gratefulness, because I know it could always be worse. On the other hand I battle with myself like “Girl you went to school way too long and have too many student loans to be living like this. Seems like you are going backwards!”
The “What the heck am I doing with my life” thought crosses my mind more often than it should. Rather than trying to make sense of something that my feelings won’t allow, I have to surrender to God again…and again…and again….
MY LIFE LESSON AND ADVICE TO YOU
1. EXPRESS YOUR FEELINGS TO GOD, THEN PRAY
When I’m sad, mad, or just in my feelings. I let God know. I tell him what I’m struggling with, and ask for His help.
Praying is just having a conversation with God. You do not have to use fancy words, or be at a certain place in your life to pray. Literally just open your mouth and talk to Him as you would a friend.
If you find it difficult to talk to Him out loud, try writing it down. I have a journal that I write in every so often when I am really in my feelings. It is a great way to release my feelings, and it is very therapeutic for my mind.
2. TRUST IN GOD’S PLANS FOR YOUR LIFE
I’ve tried it my way, and things didn’t work out. So, at this point I have nothing to loose by trying things His way. I want to walk in my purpose. I want to help others meet Jesus. I want to spread love, and add value to others. Lastly, I want to be fulfilled. And, there is no way that I can do any of that on my own.
Proverbs 3:5 says “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;”
Walking with God, and surrendering your life to Him can be a challenging. It requires you to relinquish control of your plans, and to wait and see about His plans. BUT, inspire of any of that the relationship that you will build with God throughout the journey is priceless.
One thing that helps me on this journey is listening to worship music. One of my favorite worship songs is Fill Me Up by Casey J. Check it out below and let me know what you think.
What are you waking on God to do in your life?